Santa was Coming to Town

I never believe about Santa.
But yesterday, "Santa" was coming in the middle of the day and gave me the Christmas present and was accompanying me for all day too.

Thank you "Santa" !

*It has been a long time, folks

Portrait of an ISFJ

The Nurturer

As an ISFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you takes things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system.

ISFJs live in a world that is concrete and kind. They are truly warm and kind-hearted, and want to believe the best of people. They value harmony and cooperation, and are likely to be very sensitive to other people's feelings. People value the ISFJ for their consideration and awareness, and their ability to bring out the best in others by their firm desire to believe the best.

ISFJs have a rich inner world that is not usually obvious to observers. They constantly take in information about people and situations that is personally important to them, and store it away. This tremendous store of information is usually startlingly accurate, because the ISFJ has an exceptional memory about things that are important to their value systems. It would not be uncommon for the ISFJ to remember a particular facial expression or conversation in precise detail years after the event occured, if the situation made an impression on the ISFJ.

ISFJs have a very clear idea of the way things should be, which they strive to attain. They value security and kindness, and respect traditions and laws. They tend to believe that existing systems are there because they work. Therefore, they're not likely to buy into doing things in a new way, unless they're shown in a concrete way why its better than the established method.

ISFJs learn best by doing, rather than by reading about something in a book, or applying theory. For this reason, they are not likely to be found in fields which require a lot of conceptual analysis or theory. They value practical application. Traditional methods of higher education, which require a lot of theorizing and abstraction, are likely to be a chore for the ISFJ. The ISFJ learns a task best by being shown its practical application. Once the task is learned, and its practical importance is understood, the ISFJ will faithfully and tirelessly carry through the task to completion. The ISFJ is extremely dependable.

The ISFJ has an extremely well-developed sense of space, function, and aesthetic appeal. For that reason, they're likely to have beautifully furnished, functional homes. They make extremely good interior decorators. This special ability, combined with their sensitivity to other's feelings and desires, makes them very likely to be great gift-givers - finding the right gift which will be truly appreciated by the recipient.

More so than other types, ISFJs are extremely aware of their own internal feelings, as well as other people's feelings. They do not usually express their own feelings, keeping things inside. If they are negative feelings, they may build up inside the ISFJ until they turn into firm judgments against individuals which are difficult to unseed, once set. Many ISFJs learn to express themselves, and find outlets for their powerful emotions.
Just as the ISFJ is not likely to express their feelings, they are also not likely to let on that they know how others are feeling. However, they will speak up when they feel another individual really needs help, and in such cases they can truly help others become aware of their feelings.

The ISFJ feels a strong sense of responsibility and duty. They take their responsibilities very seriously, and can be counted on to follow through. For this reason, people naturally tend to rely on them. The ISFJ has a difficult time saying "no" when asked to do something, and may become over-burdened. In such cases, the ISFJ does not usually express their difficulties to others, because they intensely dislike conflict, and because they tend to place other people's needs over their own. The ISFJ needs to learn to identify, value, and express their own needs, if they wish to avoid becoming over-worked and taken for granted.

ISFJs need positive feedback from others. In the absence of positive feedback, or in the face of criticism, the ISFJ gets discouraged, and may even become depressed. When down on themselves or under great stress, the ISFJ begins to imagine all of the things that might go critically wrong in their life. They have strong feelings of inadequacy, and become convinced that "everything is all wrong", or "I can't do anything right".

The ISFJ is warm, generous, and dependable. They have many special gifts to offer, in their sensitivity to others, and their strong ability to keep things running smoothly. They need to remember to not be overly critical of themselves, and to give themselves some of the warmth and love which they freely dispense to others.

Droppin' Hi

Hi there, it has been a long time. Just want to say hi.
And things went worse, no improvement at all. I thought the days will be slightly better day by day. But... no, here i am falling again into deception and yeah i am not quite sure what will happen on the future. The truth that i am just losing hope for any good. that's all.

Or maybe because i am just expecting too much?

Words

A year has been passed and i profess that it was quite a hard and tough time for me while merry and joyful still be there around the harshness. Thank God, for gave me a much-lessons-learned year and i hope for the year ahead everything will be paid off with happiness :)

Words for year ahead : Less expect. Like today you were not expecting anything but someone had succeed made your day just by simple call. Thank you for the birthday call, it mean everything for today ! :-)

This is a soundcloud from my friend's friend (not him, but the vocalist is). I know this is a gospel but quite universal for everyone to hear this song. And i love her voice too much, kind of being her fan i think haha. And another song from her to be heard, check this out :-)

Been Thinking (Finally)

"To what you could never possibly have in the future, will we learn much or suffer much or both from you in the present?" 

Well, it is quite something for me. Whether things that we could never have will only give suffer or not. Been on my mind for a while, why we need to face something/someone that we could never have if they were not meant to be. It has been a while, i had done with my end-term test while i were doing for many things, such as starting to not be too dependable to a person. Quite resolution indeed, but yeah let see the result later on. Yesterday, was the day. The special day, for me, because it was the last time i saw very important one in person. Though, it was my resolve to not thinking this person as special person again and I have been trying right now so i wish i could forgot every moment that we had cherished and shared in these 2 months of holiday. Finally, life is getting upturn -at least for this moment-

Anyway i have been busy for things i am not quite sure whether being with them is comfortable or not. Or actually It just my anxiety toward people now. The truth, i am in the state of fearing of welcoming people to my life, kind of not wanting to meet new people and -a little intention- people i have known. I thought some place was comfortable but somehow someone made it not right, i am just can't stand against them and it lessen the comfortable i have felt. Convincing yourself, perhaps is the thing i do right now to make sure i am still capable doing everything i have committed to and ensure no relationship conflict with other people. The best way i thought. But only one or two made me feel uncomfortable, the rest were very good and very warm. They welcome me very well and listen to my words, being acknowledged is a rare thing nowadays, so at least they still make me feel very comfortable.

I did not know this thing is another problem or not, but having someone text-ed me saying sweet words have changed my mood for the whole day, only once though. I do not know if this is another upturn or just going to be another depression. Let see what God has planned for me in the future time :-)

See you in Next 3 Months!

Say Hi to Marvin, Dinda, and Kemal

End-term Test is done ! Hurraayy, Holiday is coming to papa! Happy Holiday to everyone see you in the new term as senior ;) Glad this term have given me so much quality time and so many experiences i had. Gonna missin' this awesome days with everyone for 3 months. Still having no plan for the upcoming holiday but let's take a break from everything for awhile teehee

Being there

It just very good story

Alexander The Great.......

Alexander the great's last words
"Ice melts when heated"
"Eyes melt when hated"

Alexander, after conquering many kingdoms, was returning home. On the way, he fell ill and it took him to his death bed.

With death staring him in his face, Alexander realized how his conquests, his great army, his sharp sword and all his wealth were of no consequence.

He now longed to reach home to see his mother's face and bid her his last adieu. But, he had to accept the fact that his sinking health would not permit him to reach his distant homeland. So, the mighty conqueror lay prostrate and pale, helplessly waiting to breathe his last.

He called his trusted generals and said, "I will depart from this world soon and I have three wishes, please carry out them out without fail."
With tears flowing down their cheeks, the generals agreed to abide by their king's last wishes.

"My first desire is that", said Alexander, "My physicians alone must carry my coffin."
After a pause, he continued, "Secondly, I desire that when my coffin is being carried to the grave, the path leading to the graveyard be strewn with gold, silver and precious stones which I have collected in my treasury".

The king felt exhausted after saying this. He took a minute's rest and continued. "My third and last wish is that both my hands be kept dangling out of my coffin."

The people who had gathered there wondered at the king's strange wishes. But no one dared bring the question to their lips. Alexander's favorite general kissed his hand and pressed them to his heart. "Oh! our king, we assure you that your wishes will all be fulfilled. But tell us why do you make such strange wishes?"

At this, Alexander took a deep breath and said: "I would like the world to know of the three lessons I have just learned."

"I want my physicians to carry my coffin because people should realize that no doctor can really cure any body. They are powerless and cannot save a person from the clutches of death. So let not people take life for granted.

The second wish of strewing gold, silver and other riches on the way to the graveyard is to tell People that not even a fraction of gold will come with me. I spent all my life earning riches but cannot take anything with me. Let people realize that it is a sheer waste of time to chase wealth.

And about my third wish of having my hands dangling out of the coffin, I wish people to know that I came empty into this world and empty handed I go out of this world".

With these words, the king closed his eyes. Soon he let death conquer him and breathed his last..!!

copied from : Islam's Facebook Account

Good Days Finally

These three days from Monday to Wednesday i always wake up with good feelings, without any over-worried or kind of hatred toward the new day. It just feel good again, wake up without any hardship i brought from yesterday and yeah, it just feel good. Thank to my friend who encouraged me, i do not know, but i feel this is the first time that such encouragement could be affecting my life in a whole, it literally changes my view suddenly. It still does not solve everything but someone made me to realize that we still have good positive over the problem we have. So keep believing the strengths within yourself! and keep believing to The Almighty sooner or later you will always get His Help, verily His Help is always near. Alhamdulillah & Thank You!

Phlegmatic

The phlegmatic personality is low-key, easygoing and relaxed.  They are patient, well-balanced and calm.  They usually have a consistent and well-balanced lifestyle.  While they are quiet, they are also possess a witty sense of humor.  They are sympathetic and kindhearted. They are content in almost any surrounding or circumstance and go with the flow of life. They have a calming disposition in times of trouble. They are not open about their emotions and are not quick to express their true feelings -- mainly because they do not want to hurt another's feelings.  They do not like feeling vulnerable by exposing their own thoughts without trusting first.

The phlegmatic will take time for others and is not hurried.  They are very patient with children and make wonderful parents.  They can take the good with the bad and do not easily become upset.  They are competent, steady, peaceful and agreeable.  They oftentimes possess excellent administrative ability.  They are natural born mediators and work well under pressure.

In a group setting, they are easy to get along with.  They are excellent listeners with a dry sense of humor.  They enjoy watching people and oftentimes have many friends.  People are naturally drawn to them because of their accepting, easygoing nature.  All-in-all, every group and every family would benefit from the stabilizing force of at least one phlegmatic!

If you have two phlegmatics in a house that caught fire they would each wait it out to see who gets off the couch first to call the fire department! If you have two phlegmatics on a working committee with a deadline approaching they would have difficulty deciding what needs to be done and both would avoid discussing the matter hoping it will go away.  A phlegmatic group needs the leadership of a strong choleric or a fussy melancholy.  A phlegmatic person is the only type of personality that will tolerate these strong temperaments anyway.  (The good thing is we are all a blend of temperaments to balance us all out!)

A phlegmatic temperament, in spite of the many wonderful characteristics can have its downside, like every temperament.  They can be unenthusiastic and do not get revved up very easily.  That can be very frustrating to the fireball, changeable sanguine temperament -- even though the balance of the phlegmatic is is exactly what a sanguine temperament needs.

A phlegmatic can become addicted to worry.  They need assurance. They can be resistant to change and that can make them indecisive and insecure in decision making. They need a lot of encouragement, even though they appear secure and confident. Remember that they do not openly express their fears or their feelings. Be sensitive with a phlegmatic.  Be as kind and considerate to them as they will be to you.

Depending on how strong the phlegmatic tendencies are, they will avoid taking on any more responsibility than needed. Again, they need to be encouraged to take on responsibility because they are very capable. Encourage and praise them.

Do not be totally fooled by their easygoing nature.  They can possess a quiet will of iron that is as immovable as a rock. They can be very stubborn and never admit it. They can be self-righteous and a little selfish at times. They will try to place decision making responsibilities onto others. They can be judgmental, sarcastic, and teasing.

They have difficulty setting goals and can lack self-motivation.  They can be difficult to get moving and they deeply resent being pushed.  They would much rather watch than be the active participant.

If you are blessed with a phlegmatic child, realize that they need direct and positive motivation.  Do not expect them to respond in immediate enthusiasm.  It is not part of their nature. Instead of pushing or judging, help them set goals and provide them with benchmark rewards.

While you may need to force a phlegmatic person to make a decision out of necessity, do not push them to make a decision and then blame them if it does not work out.  This is very detrimental to a phlegmatic's self-esteem.  They have a sensitive ego, but they will never let you see that you have hurt it. Remember that their quiet easygoing temperament makes them easy targets.  Be careful not to take advantage of them.

In conflict, do not accept their first "no", but continue to show them the confidence you have in their ability to lead or make sound decisions once motivated. Give them time and a little space to adjust to new changes and provide them with information and encouragement to help them sort through decisions. Appreciate their kind and even disposition.  Appreciate that they will not make hasty decisions and have excellent, well-balanced problem solving abilities.

Treat a phlegmatic individual very, very nice. They are a gift. As a matter of fact, every individual is a unique and special gift! As in all temperaments, be accepting of differences and appreciate our unique individualities. Learn to accept the good with the bad in oneself as well as in others. Lighten up on yourself as well as on others.  Life is short and relationships are a major and necessary part of a richness in life.

Copied from : http://www.mediationworksnorth.org/a/j/tips/15-the-easy-going-phlegmatic

It's a confession. or not.

The truth, i am actually feel bored with this mellow situation hahaha but that's how the story is in now. At the midst of activities, i am doing good with everything, my academic, my social life, my organization and committee life, and really everything has been so good. Especially for the academic, even though i put less effort on some course and i never expect much and even do not care anymore, but thank God i still got very good result. I feel like God has planned for me.Once again, Thank God.

Actually i need someone to talk to about my problems, mostly about my personal problems. But yeah i would prefer to not tell to my friends because i can not speak everything i'd want to. My lips freeze and sealed tight suddenly every time i want to tell to others. So, in the end i couldn't speak anything and yeah, i am trapped inside my own problems never getting others' perspective about my own problems. Seems like very troubled-teenager right hahaha

I just have two friends that i really trusted so much. But still, i can't say anything. At least, one of them always know when i suddenly got quite out of the blue, and the other one always know how to make a good day. To be honest, i feel more distance with one of my friend. And it saddens me very much. I mean, like after all this time, why we got distance. I know i am not quite that smart to your preferences and quite boring indeed but yeah it so happened quickly. I might lose someone who i trust so much at any time.

Then, the "you". I always forgot to mention that actually when there is an application recruitment of Airline's cadet i had taken the form, preparing the needed documents and others thing like you entered the university for first time. Suddenly, i remembered you and whoosh, it just that i threw everything (not really threw it into bin but kept it actually haha) and still thinking that perhaps, i could try it in next year, but for this year let me know you more first. But yeah, it was the earlier month before i get to know you more.

Recently, My mood is really like roller coaster, sometimes it lifts you up until you can touch the sky but sometime it just bring you and feel like to be smashed on the ground. The truth that since the start of the year i feel hopeless with myself, feel hollow and feel unwanted like that. I just try to keep going with my normal life. And by the mid of the 2nd term i feel close to 'dead inside' i mean i do not know to what i can hold on, it is like everything just changed, too fast. Family, friends and colleagues. I can't hold on my life to very close one, like family. I just forget, totally forget, what home feels like. And that's the reason when i threw my airline's thingy, i thought i found someone to hold on, even only for a brief. But at least, i found it.

As time pass by, yeah, i felt better. I moved on from 'dead inside' life to 'full of hope' life. I feel homey once more, and it turned that i got better with everything again. Family, friend and everything. But changes come too soon and it is too fast. I feel like i am striving by myself, now. I put too much effort by myself without getting any return and literally got nothing. I know i am a fool, i even tried to making back a porridge to become rice again once more. Yeah it is so useless and it worsened. And for all this sh*tful talks, i feel more hopeless, unwanted and hollow. Perhaps i just need someone to promise me that everything is going to be alright in the end or at least they try.

*actually sorry for nonsense-talk. It just my way, to express word that never was.

A moment

Second term is coming to an end, although still one month to go. But, from all i have been through i just want to say that i am tired to all of these things. Really tired, i do not know but it is like every day all i want to say was "i give up". i can't profess that i understand God's Plan. but all i know that i have a big faith onto Him. He will not fail me like others did.

Oh anyway, for someone out there. Thank you for everything, i knew it from the start we wouldn't make it but at least thank you for teaching me another lesson of life. To be honest, you have been everything all i think before sleeping and after waking up. I was very happy with everything, the day you asked me to accompany you eating, or just helped you shopping with daily-goods. Especially when you read my mind about everything, i felt surprised when you correctly read my mind not for once but for all of this time. and yeah, you're so awesome because you always have a way to make me happy. Once again, thank you for everything you did. I wish you very good life in the future and good luck on your language school. I know you could go to Harvard summer school's next year.
But, yeah, we can't be together anyway. So let's get back to real life huh? Back to another reality and for better days! it's enough of "a moment"

Random Quote

"God never asks you to be success, He only asks you to try"

-  unknown 

Mid-term is Coming

It has been a while, and all i know that in few days i have to faced another mid-term test! Actually this term is really give me a lot of free time but because of that i look down on some courses and finally got the punishment from God, i got lower mark on my quiz in all courses that i have looked down... I think any courses should be taken seriously huhuhu may the odds be ever in my favor for this mid-term tests! Good luck and basmallah!

Anyway, i forgot to mention that i have found new small family in the new big family! Yeay, i am officially accepted in Management Student Society (MSS) as Staff of Student Development. I meet all new people here who welcoming me very warm too. In my division, that led by Ina and Joan i have my teammates those are Wanda, Vivi and Fathim. I am the only boy in that division anyway haha but they really friendly and good to have fun with. I wish by participate in this society i could develop myself to be better person and succeed in PROMS! One of MSS Main Event that involved in social issue! This year theme gonna be an awesome one, just wait for the news, folks.

"I thought being greatest was the only priority i have, but i am wrong. It is happiness and the faith to God which are come first" This quote, encourage me to not being the greatest without happiness. With happiness you can be the greatest, that is the way how i will live my life. And i finally realised, not all things you can dream big of it, sometimes there are matters that you do not have to dream big and just accepted what you got. It won't lead you to any heartache. My friend said that "Expectation is the root of heartache" I do agree.

Word that Never Was

Word that Never Was just another phrase i had made (Actually i modified from the word "World that never Was") But yeah it totally represents everything. I mean, this blog is intended to express all things that i have never shared to anyone. So most likely, this is another persona of mine. The Introvert side of mine is here. While, The extrovert always stay in public. I won't deny that i am a bit mellow person. I do care with what everyone says about me but sometimes there are things that you can't hold up too much.

The truth, that there were so many things untold, there were so many things being hidden just any words could not come up to explain everything. My friends, most of them, are trustworthy person yet i found that myself hard to tell what i need to tell. So there are things that i would like to tell to my friend, but it just become another silent. I can't explain a word about what i feel inside.

What i feel about now is like a feeling "Where should i go? Does that way? Or this way instead?" I am so confused. I have no a crystal clear purpose to achieve. I do not have long-term goal. I tried to set any goal and objectives but it just a waste. For those outside people may call this like emptiness. I felt this, i mean day by day i didn't feel anything. I just through the day without any feeling. Wake up, study, small talk, sleep. My friends helped me a lot to forget these kinds of thing but in the morning and in the night it just came up again. Every time i sleep, i want to not wake up. I don't want to face the morning. It sucks for being like that.

In my emptiness, i found someone. Someone that (again) i never thought to be important in my life. Someone that makes me feel calm when it was hectic, feel secured when it was not, feel happy when it was sad, feel enjoy while it harsh. I don't know this person could make the feelings like this. But it only when i am with this person, if not, eventually i just come back to who i really am. I thought i had found the motivation even it is not sustainable but at least i found a thing that motivates me.

I thought so... but it didn't happened as i planned. This person did so much things to remember, from simple one like eating together even asking me accompanying in shopping. So much memories we have shared together. Day by day i feel much loved, i feel happiness. But as time goes by all i met was uncertainty, i do not know. I just found that we are too different, i feel so outnumbered. And all we have done now feel like not really memorable and somehow it does hurt. But we still meet up, we still going out together, we still eating together. I do not know, it just feel different. It's okay anyway. Like mother theresa said "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love" i also feel this. 

Actually things went good, but yeah it is still dwelling in uncertainty. I don't know how to face this, because if i leave i'll be back into emptiness but if not i am just getting suffer by the uncertainty itself.  and somehow i just asked myself again and again 

"So I've got one question. If we love someone so much, can we take it that one day we will be apart? And that being apart is a part of life? Is it possible, that we love someone, and we’re not afraid of losing them? At the same time I was wondering, is it possible that we can live without loving anyone at all?" - Mew in the film of Love of Siam.

If you thought this is an usual teenage problem, then you are wrong. You just never know how to be me. I wish it was just a drug problem than this kind of thing. Oh fyi, the Love of Siam film is very good film. I might post about it later soon!

Btw, there is a thing that i still have and i still keep holding on, which is a faith. Faith to The Mightiest is the only thing who could help me to survive this hardship. Thank God, If i never have you from the start i don't know what happened to me. Thank God.

Kompek15! Ohana!

Family Means Nobody left or forgotten. Seengganya udah banyak keluarga baru yang didapet di masa perkuliahan yang masih seumur jagung ini, mulai dari temen ospek, temen batch project, temen tugas mpkt, temen imotion dan temen kompek15. So much circles i am in right now and it feels so great to have them as a slice part in life. But, we already say goodbye now.

Rizki-Jessica-Elisa-Gita-Agnes-Almaz-Kak Ira-Rara
Kemal- Kak Wira-Bimo

Baru aja kepanitiaan Kompek15 selesai dan rasanya itu first time nangis karena tiba-tiba selesai aja kepanitiaan yang dialami, di Kompek15 ini aku jadi bagian staff Humas dan Registrasi yang pada awalnya aku cuman iseng untuk ikutan open recruitment acara terbesar ke 2 FEUI setelah JGTC. Wah ternyata keterima, dan sebenernya awalnya ga begitu kuat sense of belonging karena menurut aku terlalu berat kerjanya dan sesusah itu buat nelponin 60 sekolah tiap orang buat ngajakin ikut lomba kompek ini.

Jessi-Elisa-Kak Ira- Rara-Rizki-Ralista-Kak Tessa-Almaz
Kemal-Bimo

As time flows and goes by, semuanya berubah sih. Mulai dari anak-anaknya yang ternyata super-duper asik dan friendly banget. Terus juga anak-anaknya seru banget buat diajakin seru-seruan. Koordinator dan wakoor yang awalnya aku takutin karena kerjaan ku selalu ga beres ternyata mereka ga sekejam itu dan mereka berhasil bangun semangat kita yang saat-saat itu lagi demotivational karena susahnya kerjaan. Koor dan wakoor kita juga selalu sabar ngadepin kita dan selalu perhatian ama kita. Makin lama, sense of belongings aku di panitia humas dan registrasi makin muncul. Mendekati hari-H semakin kerasa agak sedih karena semua udah agak mellow dan terharu karena kita udah berhasil melewati masa-masa susah itu yang dimana kita udah nggak harus lagi nelponin 60 sekolah tiap orang dan ga harus lagi ngabisin pulsa yang super banyak. Rasanya sedih aja udah engga ketemu momen marketing call lagi yang super susah itu walaupun bahagia sih. Dan kemarin pas acara selesai itu, sedih banget karena udah harus pisah aja sama mereka. Damn, even i was not really like them at first, they made me turned to love one by one of them. HR Kompek 15! I love you all!

Btw, se so sweet itu HR Kompek15 pada ngasih pesan dan kesan satu sama yang lain dan ini yang aku dapetin dari mereka :

From Ralista! Wahaha aamiin semoga lovelife lancar :) Btw ralista ini dari duri, riau dan
sayang banget dia kemarin ga sempet ikut penutupan huhu

From Jessi! Jessi ini paling hebat banget kerjaannya. Kayak semua sekolah
banyak daftar gara-gara dia haha! 

From Rara! Anjir muka galau hahaha ga separah itu deh masang muka di kampus ra.
Terus ga ngerti misterius nya aku dimana....

From Elisa! Wah harus digarisbawahi kata COOL nya haha. Thank youu El!

From Almaz! Wahaha doain dah makin macho dan kekar kek lo maz terus
masih lugu kok ampe sekarang :)

From Gita! Iyee git ampun dah dicengin mulu kalo lagi rapat haha. Tetep HR Sejati :)

From Bimo! Aamiin Bim, doakan sebagai PR Sukses hehe terus perlu garis dibawahin
juga dong GANTENG nya nih haha

From Rizki! Baca ini berasa baca soal bahasa Indonesia ki haha
Sip bener banget ki paling menjadi diri sendiri dan paling menikmati hidup
Happiness coming first than being greatest :)

From Agnes! Hahaha makasih nes, walaupun selama ini lo sinis-in gue
akhirnya ada juga saat-saat lo muji gue ya. 

From Kak Ira! Thank you so much kak ira udah percaya sama aku. Btw aku ga bawel
aku pendiem kok kak hehe. Aamiin semoga sukses di PR dan buka restorannya :')

From Kak Wira! Hahaha iya nih kak, kalo jodoh mah kaga kemana-mana ya kak.
Aamiin doain aja selalu yang terbaik ya kak :)

 Thank You Humas dan Registrasi Kompek15 :)

Wish us still meet in Kompek 16

17th of February, 2013

First, Happy Birthday to Gayo Allaam Alfani ! Happy 18 to our smartest kid ! Stay ambitious and stay smart so you can teach us when near mid-term test and end-term test haha. And to my favorite actor, happy birthday Joseph Gordon-Levitt! I really want my hair looks like yours though it is impossible since we have different face curve and stay good in your acting.

So, one week of new term has passed and kind of depressing week though still early to depressed but so many activities to do and to complete on this week. Like you know, i have to prepare February Screening that was held on 14th and 15th of February. It is an event where we can watch any indie movies and have discussion with the director/producer. I couldn't see the event from start to end because of my awful schedule. And it was frustrating for me because i need to come to there yet i still had classes on those days. Oh, before the day, i need to meet the coordinator and i was asked to prepare the place and confirm it to the authorized people. So busy for the first week. Anyway, it has already finished though the event was not really success because not many people got come to the event. but thank God, it finished. By the way i still have one more upcoming events - KOMPEK 15 - Kompetisi Ekonomi 15 for High school students. Gonna be a busy week again hahaha

And on those depressing week i got a chance to meet my high school Friend, Sarah Septiani ! We haven't meet for 6 months more or less. Earlier, Tania told me that Sarah was going to come to UI and on the day i finally meet Sarah and her friend, which is her friend is my orientation-group friend's friend hahaha. Damn, world is really very small. And we met another friend  there, his name is Jundi. He is good looking, tania said, and he is handsome, sarah said. Anyway, Sarah made us (Tania and Me) not coming to class on that day just to accompany Sarah :) It was such a good day to be able to speak Palembang again hahaha

By the way, i have the awkwardest moment in this week, you know, on Thursday people called it Valentine's day. I didn't really something-into-this-thing and so took the day as usual. At the night, my friend, Marvin had asked me to accompany him to eat in Margocity. I forget about the valentine, but i wear red t-shirt and when we met up, he wear the same color of t-shirts. Red too. But i say it is okay since it is only a coincidence but i totally forgot that day was Valentine's day and as we walk around the mall i sensed that many people looking at us....

On that day too, i attended English Class. The class is fun, because before we starting, we played valentine's themed game which is that we need to pair a love quotes that was already in 2 part. And my friend said that the quotes really fit with me because the quote says "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." Thank God, her class is good and fun hahaha i wish my grade will be good too in English.

So what has already happened?

There were so much things happened lately. Though it was not very much, but still did. In January, day by day went so fast like a whuush, Stayed up till 5 in the morning, woke up around 2 or 3 p.m. Just like that, everyday. But in that unusual habit i have done many things. Like i have involved in socializing our university's information to many high school in Palembang and we also held "Try Out Kemas UI" Kemas stands for Keluarga Mahasiswa Sriwijaya which is people from Palembang gathered in one community. I rarely join the meeting before in Depok, but i take much part in this event too being Documentation People. New kind of job i said. The event was a big success and very fun. It just very happy when i looked the participant reaching more than 1000 people, yes one thousand.

Then, i have sight-seeing Palembang and found few things have been better, like PIM has starbucks with lowered price in Depok and the cinema's ticket getting more expensive or found that PTC has a sour sally mini stand and the last PSX has kind of unique restaurants there, i mean the layout and interior of the restaurants are quite interesting. Then for the first time, i am kind of starting to like coffee, well still can't drink the dark coffee and i prefer coffee-latte one to drink. I guess i am going to have make a new portion on my allowance for coffee.

Watching Movie was so not me  before, i mean i rarely watched movie in my life. Not really interested to them, like i only watched them once a two weeks or three weeks but in this holiday i think have watched more than 20 or 30 films. Reading books too, i can't stand for this thing but seriously i am starting to read books now. I am bit surprised of myself now. Well, starting to build up this hobby by reading some light novel and hope i can try to finish any serial books. Well, i never thought i could being like this. Did it has a reason in it? Yeah it has, if not why would i suddenly change like this.

The 2nd term is already in front of the eye. Damn, i know i want to go to campus soon but never thought that i still in delight of laziness. Wanting to be a potato couch again please. I got lucky for having a very kind lecturer on 6 credits, yeah 6 credits and positively you are going to have A in your transcript, Thank God! but for other course... Well don't know how to said. Just hope for the best and plan for the worst. By the way there a story about credits i am going to take. You know, as a freshman i should take 21 credits on this term no more no less. The course already packaged for the freshman, but you know i try to add more course so i could take 23 credits this year. At first i was very anxious because many of my friends get rejected on their courses plan registration because adding more credits. Actually i have contacted my academic adviser about my wants to have 23 credits on this term. Then the day where my courses plan registration already approved by my adviser make me feel so relieved because others rejected and i was not. But suddenly the next day, people from the academic bureau call me  and asking why i was trying to take 23 credits and not following the rule. I said "I have consulted with my adviser and she said it was okay", "Who is your adviser", "Viverita, miss" well she became quiet for 2-3 seconds "Oh miss rita yea? So it is okay for you to have more credits from others?" "Yeah, sure" "Okay *hang up" I thought, why hearing my adviser make her accepted that i am taking 23 credits? Did Miss Rita, my adviser,i mentioned to her make her got nothing to say anymore? Lol, who knows.

Oh yeah, next week i am going to have written test for Management Student Society Staff Open Recruitment. With all my might, i am going to put my best effort to this recruitment, i really want to be a part of Management Student Society as Public Relations Staff. Wish Me Luck!

Friends

Kemarin-kemarin lagi beresin barang-barang di kamar dan engga sengaja ketemu buku guide sebuah game jaman 3 sd gitu, dibuku itu aku inget banget nulisin nomor telpon teman sd aku namanya agsal. He was my bestfriend on my first-time in Palembang. Terus kita pisah pas kenaikan kelas gitu dan udah jarang kontakan. Terus naik kelas ampe lulus sd pun udah ga terlalu kontakan sih. Yah, itu sih yang langsung kepikir waktu ngeliat nomor telpon nih orang. Uda 7 tahun aja ga ketemu sama dia, terus karena penasaran sekarang dia gimana langsung buka facebook gitu dan ngepoin twitter hahaha. Looking that he's not so active in social media so i didn't contact him after that.

Tapi besoknya engga disangka ada yang ngeadd bbm, namanya agsal. Serius ini orang baru dikepoin kemarin udah ngeadd bbm aja besoknya? segitu banget dunia sama takdir langsung nemuin nih orang. Awalnya sih takut salah orang soalnya dp dia racer gitu, which is i believed it is may be him since i've known that he like racing things. Setelah ganti dp dia sekitar 2 hari kemudian akhirnya baru deh berani ngontak dia duluan dan ternyata emang dia kok dan dari dp masih muka agsal yang dulu dikenal hahaha. 

The fact, hasil akhir dari obrolan adalah ternyata dia masih kelas 3 sma soalnya pas kelas x dia ga sekolah setahun gara-gara dikeluarin hobi tawuran (err...) terus sekarang dia smk di...... Depok. Damn, dunia sempit banget yak ternyata. Ternyata dia sama-sama di depok dan sekolah dia engga jauh dari UI katanya. Hahaha ntar kalo udah balik ke Depok harus ketemu nih orang, 7 tahun engga pernah ketemu apa kabar yak.. Tapi lucu aja sih dan masih engga nyangka aja... Tuhan emang udah punya plannya sendiri gitu ya. Tiba-tiba aja habis ngepoin nih orang besok dia ngeadd bbm, terus tanya-tanya kabar eh ternyata selama ini deket tinggalnya. 

It has never been on my mind that i would miss college's life so much. I miss all the friends who always made my day in every suck daily-routine-things. Ini nih temen yang sering bareng dikampus. Udah satu semester setia nemenin kerempongan satu sama lain. Dari kiri ada gabby, temen smp dulu dan ternyata satu kelompok ospek dan sampe sekarang jadinya deket, padahal dulu smp engga kenal sama sekali. Terus ada lia, semacam bahan bully-an anak-anak kelompok ospek dan semacam partner karena selalu sekelas sama dia. Terus ada marvin, temen makan dan hedon satu ini pinter banget akun, dan berhasil ngajarin aku akuntansi yang sehopeless manusia yang mau menghadapi uts (ampe nangis bahkan sehari sebelum uts gara-gara ga ngerti) berhasil ngebuat nilai akhir A- (I owe you so much Marviin!) Oh ya marvin ini orangnya smart banget kalo ngomong sama dia ada aja trivia-trivia baru yang masuk ke otak. Terus ada gayo, si bocah aksel yang selalu dikatain ambisius karena pinter banget dah, sering ngajarin kita yang hopeless di beberapa pelajaran. Terus ada mbak dinda, temen paling extrovert yang pernah ditemuin karena setiap ketemu dia setiap hari bakal selalu ada cerita baru tentang hidupnya mulai dari orang tua, adek sampe pacarnya. Gara-gara si dinda aku juga ikutan extrovert... thanks din membenarkan teori pergaulan memang memberi pengaruh. Terus ada aulia, biasanya dipanggil aul anaknya baek banget tapi  jarang meet up karena dia anak kelas inter jadi beda jadwal. Satu lagi nih yang engga ada, namanya fara. Bahan bully-an kita juga dan temen yang selalu ditanyain "fara mana?" karena kelas dia beda terus sama kita hahaha

Damn, Can't wait to meet up those guys! but 2nd term have not-so-friendly schedule.. seems can't enjoy things as much as before...

"The Delight of presence is best known by the torments of absence"