I don't know how to explain everything.
I'm not myself anymore for the recent times.
I'm tearing into pieces and getting smaller and smaller and i don't know how i should put this.

I'd wish that i could tell everything personally but it seems too hard.
i don't know anymore, i just force myself for being strong all the time. yeah i force it.
Somehow, I've been really envy w/ someone, he's still have everything while one's gone and me? one's gone and so others. he do nothing and gain more, he fits in everywhere.  again, and me? Fck.

P.S : Sorry God for wishing and muttered too much. It is just that i don't have any choices right now. I'm too tired for all of this....