Little Therapy

Yesterday when i was blog walking to another blog who suffering from things called depression, i found out that he tried to do writing everyday as his therapy. I don't know, even though he hasn't fully recovered yet but it seems worth to try. Because, i think talking to other people is not really helping you a lot since they will get confused by our problem. So at least this thing won't make someone get burdened by me.

Anyways, on the moment i am writing this post, i am doing my assignment on New Products Management Course. Usually, when compiling presentation from others, i am the one who really get excited and get ambitious to design it as cool as possible. But suddenly, i lost my interest to this thing which really made me happy before. I don't know if little things like this matter. And actually i have another assignment and tomorrow is the due date, but i am haven't done a word on my paper... I don't know. I am just losing my interest towards anything I've done before.

I also got accepted as Top 200 Future CEO in XL CEO Challenge, but i haven't got any spirit to do the next assignment to proceed me to the next selection process. Before of all this giving up things, i am the one who really got big ambitions toward this things. But now... nothing, i feel nothing nor any excitement. And Actually i also got a chance to have interview for applying in KampusUpdate, it is one of emerging campus network social media company and for me i think it was a good chance to be part of it. But.. again, i suddenly have no interest again that thing.

All i care just finding things that would make me busy and hinder me from thinking deeper to negativity. I don't know if i am being ungrateful or not... but I can't push myself anymore to do anything i wanted. I am just afraid of another failure. I am truly afraid of that thing. I don't want to experience failures for the moment. I need some times to heal everything. But i guess, time won't wait me to be completely healed.

Rather than hiding my feeling, i am trying to shut my feelings. Sometimes, it just better to feel nothing, because nothing can make you feel sad and nothing can be taken away from you.