Seeing people, especially you care so much, changing into better people and having big dreams is quite good view. Grateful for they are able to know what to pursue in the future and have something to hold on even the whole world is falling apart. It is just a nice scenery.
I'd wish that i would have something the same like them.
Anyway i rarely took a note about myself anymore. I am quite get overwhelmed by things happened recently. I don't know, i thought i can handle them but seems everything is out of my control. I just do not know what may happen in the next time, i am just clueless about everything, i don't even know what i truly want right now. More time passed by, i am getting more afraid to know people. I feel that the more i know about people, the more myself estranged. I am surrounded by my best friends yet i feel being stranger to them. Sometimes i just want to be away from them not because they do not treat me well, but because i am not better for them. But just how to walk away without being noticed? And i do not know but i am considering to start hating myself for not being able to overcome everything. Geez, recently i am just surviving not living anymore.
I am trying to solve things, but none of them were worked. So i stopped.
Do i have to try again?
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