I don't know how to explain everything.
I'm not myself anymore for the recent times.
I'm tearing into pieces and getting smaller and smaller and i don't know how i should put this.

I'd wish that i could tell everything personally but it seems too hard.
i don't know anymore, i just force myself for being strong all the time. yeah i force it.
Somehow, I've been really envy w/ someone, he's still have everything while one's gone and me? one's gone and so others. he do nothing and gain more, he fits in everywhere.  again, and me? Fck.

P.S : Sorry God for wishing and muttered too much. It is just that i don't have any choices right now. I'm too tired for all of this....

A Bit long uninteresting

An usual night to write a post about something in my mind. Right now, at the moment i'm writing this i feel so.....  angry... but not really but yeah still angry. It is about my team's homework to make a slide about History, about what Gusdur And Habibie ever did to Indonesia, and yet they all promised me on the afternoon to give the material and send it by email and now 23:09 and there's no incoming mail or at least messages!!! Damn, i'm so f**cked up now -___- And it still undone now.

Well, it is a God destiny i thought. lol.

There's something  on my mind for weeks. It's been a long time for wanting to have someone you cared most cared about you too - or actually i did but just concealed it. Let's say it "was" but i have a thought that i wanted to share.

Ever heard a quote like "Leave someone that doesn't care with you, and start to pay attention to person who love you most" ? Actually i thought deeply about this and finally understand this quote has an impossibility. Yeah you can't love the person you don't love even he/she loved you most than the person you adored so much. You're so stubborn for still getting in love with someone that doesn't care with you and you still left the person whom loved you most out there.

So, is it really true that you will leave the person you most cared and turned away reaching someone who adored you so much? A few of us will do, excluding me.

ah actually, i don't know what i was writing!

UTS Done

Almost a week or accurately 6 hard days already passed. I realllyyyyy thank God for the result of this mid-term test. At least I didn't have any remedial. Alhamdulillaah. In that tiring 6 hard days i rarely found myself sleep at 12.00 a.m. instead i always sleep at 2.00 a.m and wake up at 5.00 a.m. My hardwork is paid :) Now, school is going to be like usual until End of November, finalllyyy...

It's already the fourth month of Third Grade school. Only 6 months later we're going to go to graduate. Damn, Time please slower than anything, I mean it so much.

Everyday is Good day

Its already Eid Mubarak day for some people thought i havent celebrate it but let say : HAPPY EID MUBARAK GUYS, WISH WE WILL BECOME A BETTER PERSON ON THIS HOLY DAY :)

actually thinking of eid mubarak means 2 days more is september, you know what.. it's first 3 months of last year studying. I mean, i really want to graduate soon just because this f-ing stuff homework quizzes and even more. But at the same time i really want the time to stop. It just i really love my class yeah and i'm gonna miss it. It is so different now, i'm always having a goodtime in school now. Having fun with lutpi hana albet momo neni. Having a great conv. with ela tara eka fatan. Having happiness from making fun of cindy and val and tania. Having a smile from hearing jokes from sarah, fifi, bena, temid.

Well they really make my day everyday :) thx. I hope this will last veryyyyyyy looong

It's been awhilee yeaah

Yes It has been awhile since i last posting. Kind of missing the moment i always stay to this blog. Dont know why but i'm very lazy with any social network like twitter fb google plus or even the new one heelloo (i dont know how to write it) it seems there nothing interesting with them anymore.

It has been awhile and i already turned to 17. Still young but is having so much burden on this age. Thinking of college, college and college. Right now i just want the time to stop and i spend my time with my friends so i can stop thinking that for a moment. Oh God I mean it...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLLA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LARETNA PRANADIAN RAHAJENG ! HAPPY SEVENTEEN!

ALL THE BEST AND GOD'S BLESSING ALWAYS WITH YOU o:)










*maaf tdk menarik krn dr hp haha

What to do next

"Re-Start?"

Looks like. Cause it is

A promising choice i have than "ENDURE"